Saturday, June 18, 2011

I Control it ALL #GBE2

This is my entry to this weeks #GBE2, the topic is "CONTROL". thanks to Elizabeth Grace!

God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

What is in our control? A lot more than people think. The
whole creating your own reality concept, blows right past most people. They
think control equals security equals be married have kids own a house go to
work earn a paycheck pay bills take some vacations pay taxes then die.

I have a lot of issues around control, controlling people, and
self-control. This topic made me think of a lot of directions to go in with
this blog. I have an issue with controlling my appetites, from rich and sweet
foods, to sex-with-the-ex, i’m pretty self indulgent. I have issues around
self-control with my mouth. I was an unfiltered blurter for a while lol.

i’ve been working on for about the last 20 years and have it pretty much in
control. That was a long road. I have issues with attracting controlling mates.
Nuff said. I had a really hard time controlling my son when he was 3 & his
dad & me broke up. How difficult that was to regain that control. Now that
he is 16 i have less control over him once again.

There are others who I wanted
to recommend they control their children instead of neglecting them.

But i like the creating your own reality story better. To me,
what is in my control is my faith, my belief system, that no matter the outer turmoil,
my inner world is at peace. Even though outwardly, i don’t have anything i
should at my age. No husband, no house i own, no IRA, no college fund for my
kid. Those things would be nice, as would health insurance, savings, and the
ability to repay my student loans. But those are outward things. I have not
lost a minute sleep over them.

I have an uncanny ability to focus on the positive that creates for me a universal safety net that softly catches me when i fuck up. some call it karma that i fall at all, i call it karma that i land softly. I land on my feet. “like a cat thrown out a window” as my mom said yesterday to
me lol.

I love my apartment, i have no cable but i have my DVD collection, my
Blockbuster card, the radio. I love music and it’s ability to uplift. I have the
ability to block, unfriend or otherwise evict toxic people from my life. I have
likewise the knack to attract positive, good people around me. Like you!

"Ambitious people force their will on others,
But content people are already wealthy."

~Lao Tzu

Thanks for reading!



  1. landing softly...keeps us LEAPING !!! love this !!

  2. Excellent attitude and a lot more people would do well to try your way :)

  3. I'm with spark. I think that was the best way to put it.

  4. Great take on the whole control issue. I love this post! I have the ability to evict toxic people and attract positive, good people too, I think that's an important skill.

  5. I love learning more about people and you have shown us a window into your life here! Thank you for that!

    Just last night I too was thinking along the lines that you've stated here and feeling a bit disappointed that I "don't have" certain things that I thought that I'd have by now, but I have other things and I'm okay with my life for the most part. We can always make changes too and we know that life changes again and again regardless...

    Nice blog!

  6. Kimi, you are my always soul-sister. ♥

  7. I can relate to a lot of the issues you mentioned in your post. Loved the photos too.


  8. ahhhhhhhhh breathe in.......breathe out...YES
    thats what its ALL ABOUT ... you made me smile.. and say WOW her too? hehe

  9. land softly- love this! ...and the illustrations too. :)

  10. I loved your blog, cousin! You're so sweet and honest. I am so thankful that you have that inner peace to sleep well at night and not let "the stuff" get to you. I could take a lesson from you...Sometimes I love that I am imperfect. I can't imagine being perfect and having to keep up with that reputation. (lol) The pressure!

    You're doing great, Kim. Keep the faith and love.