God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
What is in our control? A lot more than people think. The
whole creating your own reality concept, blows right past most people. They
think control equals security equals be married have kids own a house go to
work earn a paycheck pay bills take some vacations pay taxes then die.
I have a lot of issues around control, controlling people, and
self-control. This topic made me think of a lot of directions to go in with
this blog. I have an issue with controlling my appetites, from rich and sweet
foods, to sex-with-the-ex, i’m pretty self indulgent. I have issues around
self-control with my mouth. I was an unfiltered blurter for a while lol.
i’ve been working on for about the last 20 years and have it pretty much in
control. That was a long road. I have issues with attracting controlling mates.
Nuff said. I had a really hard time controlling my son when he was 3 & his
dad & me broke up. How difficult that was to regain that control. Now that
he is 16 i have less control over him once again.
There are others who I wanted
to recommend they control their children instead of neglecting them.
But i like the creating your own reality story better. To me,
what is in my control is my faith, my belief system, that no matter the outer turmoil,
my inner world is at peace. Even though outwardly, i don’t have anything i
should at my age. No husband, no house i own, no IRA, no college fund for my
kid. Those things would be nice, as would health insurance, savings, and the
ability to repay my student loans. But those are outward things. I have not
lost a minute sleep over them.
I have an uncanny ability to focus on the positive that creates for me a universal safety net that softly catches me when i fuck up. some call it karma that i fall at all, i call it karma that i land softly. I land on my feet. “like a cat thrown out a window” as my mom said yesterday to
I love my apartment, i have no cable but i have my DVD collection, my
Blockbuster card, the radio. I love music and it’s ability to uplift. I have the
ability to block, unfriend or otherwise evict toxic people from my life. I have
likewise the knack to attract positive, good people around me. Like you!
"Ambitious people force their will on others,
But content people are already wealthy."
Thanks for reading!